I Thought I Was Growing Pumpkins…..

One year Jerry and I decided to grow pumpkins.  I really don’t know what possessed us to try it.  We’d been relatively successful at growing vegetables like tomatoes, carrots, or radishes.  And now we thought we were ready for more.  So, pumpkins it was.

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We put in some starter plants.  They took right away.  The vines grew longer and longer, and then there was fruit.  Until there wasn’t.

Whiffs of Smoke Taught Me Something About Vision

I woke up in a hotel room in Anaheim, CA.  Coughing, sneezing, eyes burning.  Sick.  At the Podcast Movement conference, I so wanted to be fully present.  Meet people.  Engage in lively conversation.  Learn everything there was to learn.  Instead, I was fighting to stay awake.  Feeling as though my head was floating – like it wasn’t part of my body.  Or it might explode.

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There was something else too this morning when I woke up.  I saw what looked like puffs of smoke floating around in my left eye.  Like the smoke that wafts from a campfire as it dances on the breeze. And I couldn’t see very well.

I Was Trying to Feed the Horse…and He Kept Ignoring Me

The other day I stopped on my walk to visit two horses who live at the end of my street.  One came over almost right away to say hi.  He’s gotten used to seeing me on my evening walks in the neighborhood.  I often feed him some grass when I stop by, which is probably the real reason he comes so quickly when I stop by.

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But this time he didn’t take the grass.

Sometimes Winners DO Quit

(or....why I drove to Philadelphia on Saturday night and came home on Sunday morning)

I’m supposed to be in Philadelphia at a conference today.  I was supposed to be there on Sunday and Monday too.  But I’m not.  I’m at home.

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And I’m right where I should be.

How Does She Do It All?

If you’ve read my blog for a while, you know I have a full-time job as well as this blog and a podcast.  Not only that, but I’ve been traveling most weeks from CT to NC for business.  Add on my music ministry at church and the normal responsibilities of a homeowner and just… well…life, and it’s quite a juggling act.

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You may be judging yourself by comparison.  You may be asking yourself, “How does she do it all?”

How’s It Working For You?

That thing you do that makes you feel good in the moment, and then doesn’t satisfy.  Leaves you stuck.  Lonely.  Or angry with yourself.  That thing you think explains your actions, puts them into a story you’ve told yourself more than once.  That story that sounds good until you realize it rings hollow and empty.

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Yeah that.  How’s it working for you?