This Too Shall Pass

Strange weather has taught me a valuable lesson.  One I seem to need to learn over and over – a lot.  The week of New Year’s it was cold.  VERY cold.  Maybe even record cold for that time of year.  We had the snowstorm (aka bomb cyclone) on January 4th, all while experiencing a deep freeze.  Southern New England got anywhere from 6-16 inches of snow, and it drifted all over the place.  It seemed like it would be cold forever.

(c) Kathleen Thompson

(c) Kathleen Thompson

Then suddenly it was warm.

Whiteout

Day three of retirement, and we’re having Snowmaggedon, a Bomb Cyclone, or whatever catchy name they want to call a huge Nor’easter in New England.  Heavy snowfall, high winds that swirl like a hurricane.

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(c) AdobeStock Photo

A complete whiteout.

A Jumble of Emotions

Yesterday was my first day not going to the office.  Well, sort of, anyway.  I actually did go to the office…to turn in my laptop, phone, ID badge, and credit card.  Except this time I couldn’t go in.  I’ve already been erased from the system.  My name already says “presence unknown” in the corporate chat tool.

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(c) AdobeStock Photo

How do I feel?  A jumble of emotions.  Just like life.

What I Deleted on the Way to the Finish Line

I woke this morning in a cold sweat – heart racing and body tight and stressed.  I slept fitfully, apparently feeling the stress of the last day of work.  It took every ounce of energy and skill I had to breathe my way to calm.  Why?

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(c) AdobeStock Photo

Because I spent yesterday racing to the finish line.

What Clouds at the Cemetery Taught Me About Hope

Today was the 13th anniversary of my husband Jerry’s death.  It’s a funny thing – an anniversary like this.  On one hand, I don’t want to live in the past.  13 years is a long time, and I’ve created a whole new life in that time.  On the other hand, I want to honor the love that still lives between us, even though he’s not here.  I will love him always, and it’s important to me to set aside time as a special remembrance.

(c) Kathleen Thompson

(c) Kathleen Thompson

So today I found myself in between two worlds, a place I’ve spent a lot of time of late as I transition out of my job.